the 1st 11 days of this year have challenged my equilibrium. i’m not sure if nature might be pushing back at me since i exerted quite a lot of energy in the month of december. whatever the reason, i certainly didn’t expect to encounter a somewhat distorted and dinghy looking glass. hope- expectation- success- disappointment- are all curves on the same highway.
wow… these past days certainly reflect the idea of trudging the road of happy destiny- at least the trudging part.
what i am very sure is that i believe that this current movie reel i find myself dramatizing in is temporary. my story involves much more for me to do, more to endure, more to discover, more to learn, and more to let go.
learning to let go of my expectations is an avocation. i struggle with it incessantly. strangely too, because there is definitely a freedom in the releasing of such. no matter though, i still feel most comfortable when i can worry about things and feel twisted because something is gonna fuck up. peace is the journey today. i have had to let go of so many things in order to find where i am.
Refuge Prayer O Amida, I take refuge in you,Ocean of Oneness, Eternal Life and Light;
Entrusting with my whole heart and mindIn your Primal Vow;I am empowered by you to live a full, Compassionate and creative life,I dedicate myself to the service of all beings,Striving to help others realize,Their human potential and Enlightenment;May your Teachings guide meThroughout the day, in my relationships, work and play. Namo Amida Buddha