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All Apologies

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Mary Poppins is a series of eight children’s books written by P. L. Travers and published over the period 1934 to 1988. Mary Shepard was the illustrator throughout the series. The books centre on magical English nanny Mary Poppins. She is blown by the East wind to Number 17 Cherry Tree Lane, London, and into the Banks’s household to care for their children. Encounters with pavement-painters and shopkeepers and various adventures follow until Mary Poppins abruptly leaves—i.e., “pops-out”. Only the first three of the eight books feature Mary Poppins arriving and leaving. The later five books recount previously unrecorded adventures from her original three visits. As P. L. Travers explains in her introduction to Mary Poppins in the Park, “She cannot forever arrive and depart.”

this description mirrors my adventures over the last 8 years. I have been continuously gobsmacked by the role of program administrators being in opposition to client centered care. My most recent dalliance has seen intakes and subsequent discharges mirroring the use of a box of kleenex and a nearby waste can. I am unable to endure this any longer. I don’t see myself as overly sensitive, but I do believe it takes time and effort to help people recover from addiction.

I’m interested in being a force for good in the middle of an epidemic-not capitalizing from it. And I don’t think I want to be a part of any program that exploits people that are ill.

What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else should I write
I don’t have the right
What else should I be
All apologies

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun

Married
Buried

I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I’ll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezer burn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun

Married
Buried

Yeah, yeah yeah yeah

All in all is all we are.

Written by Kurt Cobain • Copyright © BMG Rights Management US, LLC

this bird has flown

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“Control leads to compliance; autonomy leads to engagement.”  ― Daniel H. Pink
“Control leads to compliance; autonomy leads to engagement.”
― Daniel H. Pink

 

it is time to fly. i have had the most wonderful couple of weeks saying goodbye and good luck to clients. i know that i have had an incredible adventure. i put in my last hours at the local public hospital, and despite the fact that the final 6 months have been like watching flies writhe around helplessly in a pool of clover honey, i am leaving with a fondness for helping others and a stronger and more solid belief in education and in the priniciples and the miracles that recovery bring. i know this to be true in my own life.

i was looking for quotes to place beneath the cardinal enjoying his freedom and i came across several from the author of “drive”- daniel h. pink. they have captured my imagination. from what i can surmise, his premise in “drive” is his sharing what he has found to be authentic inspiration for growth and greatness in the workplace in lieu of the circumstances that create a deadhead approach to work and living. the shortest distance between two points may be a straight line, however a longer more circuitous journey may bring a much higher yield in the long run.

i heartily relate to this idea that compliance is not at all linked to productivity, profit, or creativity. compliance  is merely putting blinders on or shackles. it sucks the yellow and blue out of the day.

i  left the safety of the nest i had built. i have no straight line. i will fly. i keep saying to myself that i have to believe in myself and in my life. and here is where the rubber meets the road. i do believe in myself and i welcome into my life wonderful wonderful things. and i am flying again towards inspiration and motivation. wings- don’t fail me now….

Drive Quotes 
 
“The ultimate freedom for creative groups is the freedom to experiment with new ideas. Some skeptics insist that innovation is expensive. In the long run, innovation is cheap. Mediocrity is expensive—and autonomy can be the antidote.”   TOM KELLEY General Manager, IDEO” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“Greatness and nearsightedness are incompatible. Meaningful achievement depends on lifting one’s sights and pushing toward the horizon.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“Newtonian physics runs into problems at the subatomic level. Down there–in the land of hadrons, quarks, and Schrödinger’s cat–things gent freaky. The cool rationality of Isaac Newton gives way to the bizarre unpredictability of Lewis Carroll.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“The monkeys solved the puzzle simply because they found it gratifying to solve puzzles. They enjoyed it. The joy of the task was its own reward.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“The problem with making an extrinsic reward the only destination that matters is that some people will choose the quickest route there, even if it means taking the low road. Indeed, most of the scandals and misbehavior that have seemed endemic to modern life involve shortcuts.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“People can have two different mindsets, she says. Those with a “fixed mindset” believe that their talents and abilities are carved in stone. Those with a “growth mindset” believe that their talents and abilities can be developed. Fixed mindsets see every encounter as a test of their worthiness. Growth mindsets see the same encounters as opportunities to improve.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“Human beings have an innate inner drive to be autonomous, self-determined, and connected to one another. And when that drive is liberated, people achieve more and live richer lives.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“Goals may cause systematic problems for organizations due to narrowed focus, unethical behavior, increased risk taking, decreased cooperation, and decreased intrinsic motivation. Use care when applying goals in your organization.”